Spring Break/ Update..

Spring break for the kids, is coming up quick. And I can't wait. Nick will be flying home next weekend, to pick us up. And we'll be headed to Colorado, for their spring break. It is a much needed vacation. Especially for me. Lol I have a ton of spring cleaning to do, so this will be a nice little break before heading back to reality! haha  I am seriously counting down the days!!! :)

We are cleaning out our whole garage, and I am making me my own little craft area. Where I plan to put all my thrift store findings and other miscellaneous things. Lol Cause my little brother is sick of having all my beautiful junk in his room! It's so terrible! It literally has taken up more than half his room!! He threatens to have a yard sale, if I don't get is out asap! haha He's so dramatic! LOL

As far as Mele and Spencer go. Spencer has another loose tooth, this makes it his third tooth that he will be losing. haha  And Mele has one as well. My poor little toothless monkeys! Lol  They are doing extremely well in school! Their teacher's had nothing, but good things to say about them. They are both at the top of their classes and have great grades! They make us such proud parents! :) Spencer needs to work on his behavior skills, but other than that.. life is just peachy for them. Lol Which really means, they're always bored! hahaha They've been staying on top of keeping their rooms clean. Thank goodness. So this week, all I need to work on is laundry, my room, and just getting our bags packed for our little spring break getaway. :)

As for myself, I've been doing really good on limiting my projects to only twice a week. I scored on a ton of stuff yesterday at different thrift stores. I can't wait to work on them!! :) It has just been a nice, relaxing week. Being productive, really does help the time go by a lot faster. Cause Saturday's are my FAVORITE days!! Only if Nick comes home, that is! haha  He won't make it home today though, so I'm a little bummed. :( But I'm sure this week will fly by.. :)


Lately, I've been consumed by doing 'Pinterest' projects around my home. I've been re-decorating, and loving how everything has been coming together! :) I usually work on my projects while the kids are at school, and if not.. I work on them late at night, cause I swear I have insomnia! So I'm up all night, and when the kids get home from school, I'm so drained. I hate it! So I made a goal, starting Sunday.. that I'm going to be in bed by 10, latest 11!! I hope I can do it!

For the past couple days, I felt like I've been neglecting my poor kids. Terrible, right? I've been trying to take them to the park when I can (when my paint is drying on different projects). Today I took them on a long walk. We even stopped at Hook and Ladder for some ice cream. Seeing their faces light up, cause of something I'm doing for them, is the BEST feeling! It's usually Nick, who is the cool parent. Haha It was the perfect weather for our little stroll, and I plan to take them on many more adventures! :)

I found some really neat family traditions that I want to start with them, that I've seen on Pinterest. Nick comes home every weekend, so he is starting his one on one interviews with them. And I'm so excited about it! He discusses their whole week with them, and all their likes and dislikes about the week. And every week, he gives them the top ten reasons, why he thinks they are so special. Every week, will be something different. It's the cutest thing.  Now if only I could master the cooking part on Pinterest! LOL

 I really need to start  taking advantage of the time I have with them! :) I'm slowly making adjustments. I'm going to try and set aside two days out of the week, that I can work on projects. And the rest of the week is devoted to my kids, and working on project Sheena! Oh yeah! LOL Wish me luck! :)

TWO front teeth..

Spencer has officially lost his TWO front (bottom) teeth! He couldn't be more excited. He thinks the tooth fairy is the coolest person.  He runs through our house screaming, 'I'm Rich! I'm Rich!' LOL He keeps telling us, that all his teeth are loose now. I swear, this kid! When he gets older and has no more teeth, I hope he'll look back on this post and remember that he once was very happy to be losing all his teeth! Lol

First tooth.. 
Nick comes home on the weekends, so he pulled Spencer's first tooth, about two weeks ago. And I pulled his second one, last weekend.  Pulling it out sounds so painful, right?? We only pulled them, cause they were barely hanging on. It was hurting him to even take a bite of anything. So they came out super easy. And painless at that. Lol

I always joke and tell Spencer and Mele, how weird it is to me.. that they both lost their two front bottom teeth first. Growing up, Nick and I.. both lost our two front top teeth. That was normal. LOL But I guess not now, the cool teeth are the bottom ones! haha

Second tooth..
I almost cried when he lost his first tooth. It just hit me, that he really is growing so fast! :( He doesn't do a lot of the things, he use to do. He really doesn't care to sleep with me anymore. And he's gotten to heavy for me to try and sneak him to my room, after he falls asleep! haha He's just such a big boy now..

He has a lisp, so now that he doesn't have two teeth, it's more obvious than before! It's the cutest thing! He always brightens up my day, when he turns to me and says, 'Shhhhhhhhhh'.. Lol He's such a clown! :)

I have a ton of updating to do. We have Parent Teacher Conferences tomorrow. So I'm sure I'll have a ton to blog about then. LOL.. I've also been re-doing my house, and totally stepping out of my comfort zone. But loving the outcome! Can't wait to post pictures when it's all done! Pinterest has taken over my life!! haha

Suga Mama..

Throughout my life, I've been blessed with the opportunity of having not one, but two moms. My mother Laila, and my second mother (my moms older sister) Sina. And that's who I wanted to blog about. My second mother, Sina. I was born around the time, she returned home on her mission. And I was glued to her hip, ever since!!! haha 

This women, has to be one the Greatest examples in my life! I've never met anyone as humble, caring, giving, and loving as she is. Our kids know her as 'Suga Mama', cause she swears she's too young to be called 'Grandma'.. haha She has six other kids, but they all know, I am the oldest!! LOL Her biological oldest son, was born on my birthday. I always tease and say, that he was born on my birthday, to try and fill the void they had for me, after I left. haha Mean, I know.. But it's all jokes. Kind of! LOL (Love you Chad!!)

She emailed me a couple weeks ago, and had me in tears! Even through her email, I could feel her presence and love.. I just re-read her email today, and again.. I'm in tears!! This is what she wrote : 

"I told you on your wall how I was thinking and missing you all. I was going thru some old stuff & journals, and recalled the worst back pain ever in my life! One night after I just returned from my mission, you were about 3 or 4. A friend (guy) came to visit me at the compton house, so I was outside talking with him and you came out to me and I could not get you to go back into the house. I tried making excuses for you to go back in but you just held my leg then got to playing with my friend and just stayed out there (so nosey)..lol. You finally got tired and I carried you thinking our visit should be ending soon anyway because it was getting late at night. You fell asleep so we talked a little more since now you weren't listening.. ha ha. But I guess that lil talk ended up being another hour. When we finally said our good byes I turned to walk to the house with you and I couldn't move. Scared and not wanting to be embarrassed in front of my friend, I told him to go ahead and leave because I saw uncle Pelo's friend was coming from the backyard. So he left, and I still could not move, so I asked uncle pelo's friend to take you in for me. The pain was so bad I tried to crawl to the house then uncle's friend came out after taking you in and helped me. He said it's because I was standing & carrying you for so long.

I have been thinking a lot of how you had been such a joy in my life then. Uncle fell in love with you because he knew he had to win you over in order to have brownie points with me. At that time he knew he wasn't the only one vying for my hand..ha ha
Anyway, seeing what a wonderful mother, wife and person you turned out to be is still a great source of joy in my life. I wish we lived closer so we can see and be with you often... well, that's all. Sorry for the novel but just recalling so many things... I love you always!"

Words could never express how much this woman means to me!! I am so much like her, in so many ways!! And for that, I am so proud! I can't thank her enough, for all that she has done for myself and my little family. She is an extraordinary women, mom, sugar mama, aunt, sister, wife, and friend!! 

We love you Sina Vaifanua!! :) 


11 years ago today, I gave birth to a Beautiful baby girl. I named my little angel, Raviahna. I was only 17 years old, so my parents thought it would be best for my mom to keep her until I could finish school. My mom took her, and it broke my heart! I was so depressed. I have a really hard time expressing how I feel about things. It's easier for me to just break down and cry. So when my mom took her and went back to Texas, I cried every night! And I would keep a straight face,  and pretend like everything was okay.

 We would visit her here and there, but the trips were getting harder and harder. She would cry every night when she would come to visit. We would have to bribe her to stay another day, or just to stop crying for that matter. It was just too hard on me, seeing her like that. She was not happy at all here. So after she went back to Texas this last time, we kind of grew apart. I know some of you are thinking, what kind of mother lets her child go? But  being so young, I felt like I had no other choice. But to do what my parents told me. Don't get me wrong, I think of her every second of the day. So many family members of mine, have their own opinion on what they think I should do with her. But the only person I care to hear anything from about this situation, is Nana (Raviahna)! If she wasn't happy here, I wasn't going to force it on her! I had no choice, when it came to me keeping her or not. And I will NEVER do that to her!

 I called her to wish her happy birthday today. And she is just so grown. She asked me so many questions, that I knew she would eventually ask. She grew up her whole life, thinking that Nick was her biological father. So today she asked me AGAIN, why she is so much darker than Mele and Spencer. She even asked me to please be honest... I told her, that her biological father is black. And she asked me why he left? I told her, he never left. That I was the one who ran away and took her with me. She then asked, so Nick isn't my dad?? I couldn't help but break down.. again! I told her Nick will ALWAYS be her dad! When Nick and I first got together, he NEVER once judged me for having a child. He loves her as much as he loves Mele and Spencer. He seriously is the only   reason I was able to get through everything when she left!

I still couldn't believe she was asking me all these questions. I was expecting these questions when she turned 16. She asked me why she doesn't live with us? I explained the whole story. Or what I could get her to understand through all my tears! And what a strong, smart, and beautiful young girl she is! She understood what she could. And she just kept telling me to stop crying, cause she doesn't hate me! But oh, how I'm hating myself right now! Why did I ever let her go for so long? I hear it enough from others, about me letting her go. Trust me, it eats at me every single day of my life! I didn't even want to blog about it, but I feel so overwhelmed with it. I had a good crying session with Nick, but I feel like no one will ever understand what I'm feeling.  I want more than anything to have her back, but I would NEVER do that to my step dad. He seriously was like a second father to me! He's raised her since she was only a couple months old. It's just such a long story, that I really don't want to get into. He's her main provider and he's her dad.  His life revolves around her! He is such a Great guy! All he ever asked of me, was to please let her stay and finish high school with him. And the rest would be up to her. After a lot of praying.. Nick and I, agreed. She could stay with him until she finished school. Now I'm starting to question that decision..

    I'm just feeling so overwhelmed with emotions and guilt! My heart is just breaking! I just wish Nick was home!! I know, I just need to put my trust in the lord and pray about this more. But I wish it didn't hurt so bad! My sister Lala and I, will be flying out to spend a weekend with her in 2 weeks. And I can't wait to hug her and make sure she knows how much WE love her! And that she's more than welcome to come home whenever she wants!!

*Mommy LOVES you so much Nana! You have no idea how big of a blessing you are to us!! Happy Birthday Beautiful!!

Another cruise..

Splendor.. Our ship we will be on.. :) 

 We have yet another cruise coming up this November. My little family is so excited about this cruise. We went on one before, and it wasn't the best experience for me! Nick and the kids had a blast though. I, on the other hand.. was soooo seasick!! It was horrible! Nothing worked! I took motion sickness pills, I even tried a patch! And NOTHING worked! So I pretty much stayed in our room the whole time.  Nick and the kids would come and check on me, and I could just see in their faces, how much fun they were having. It was so cute! Lol I swore up and down I would NEVER go on another cruise again! But thinking back on how much fun Nick and the kids had, I would totally go through it all again for them! :)

 So lately, I've been googling ways to help prevent my motion sickness. During my pregnancies, it was bad. And it got even worse, after having them. It pretty much just never went away. So I get pretty sick on long drives, airplanes, and recently found out cruises.. even just watching movies of those things, I can sometimes get pretty nauseated. haha I found a couple things that I'm going to have to try. Soda and crackers, not to lie down when feeling nauseated, rub on my earlobes, and look over the horizon. haha Those are just a few I've read about so far. I'm really anxious to see if any of these even work. I'm hoping the 'no lying down' one works. Cause whenever I felt nauseous, I would just go and lie down. So I'm thinking that was probably why I was so sick on the cruise. I would kind of just lay there. Like a whale. A pale whale! Lol I would even feel so bloated. And trust me, pale and bloated.. do not mix!!! 

 The last cruise we went on was for 4 days. This one is going to be for 7 days! We will be sailing down the coast of Mexico. Spending 2 days in Cabo, on the beach. And another day somewhere else. I totally forgot. But I'm starting to get pretty excited now. Most of Nick's siblings are going, and a ton of his cousins and their families. So we can't wait! I'm hecka pushing my workouts, in hopes that I'll drop enough weight before this cruise! I am determined! We plan to take our kids snorkeling and to swim with the dolphins, while in Cabo. So I need a swimmer type body! ;) It doesn't help, that all you do on the cruise it EAT!! 24/7 open buffet!! Pure heaven! Lol That's another reason I need to lose a ton of weight. Cause I know I'll gain some weight on the cruise! It's so hard to pass up all that good food! haha  Our first family meeting for this cruise is Sunday, and I'm so excited! But I think Nick and the kids are more excited. Lol

Yay, for cruises and swimmer like bodies!! :) 

A day with Dad.

It was so nice waking up to Nick today. He got in last night around 11, and we stayed up and talked and watched movies until like 3 this morning. Today we planned to just be lazy and relax here at home. But my dad thought differently. Lol It's so funny to see how excited he gets too, when Nick comes home. He called me from upstairs, and asked what we were doing today? I told him, we had nothing planned. He told me he wanted all of us to go to Hollywood Connection with the kids, before Nick went back. We agreed. And that's pretty much where our whole day went. We literally spent the whole entire day there. We even left after a couple of hours to have dinner with Nick before he left, and then we went back!! Lol Longest day ever! But it was so nice to see the kids having so much fun with Nick. :)

Nick left around 4, today. He drove back with his brother. I'm really thinking of heading out there tomorrow. One of Nick's other good friend/co-worker and his family are driving out tomorrow afternoon. So I'm thinking maybe I should just follow them, since I've never been there before. I'm just waiting for Nick to get to his hotel, so we can discuss it more. So we can see if we should drive out or not. I know the kids have school, but 3 days wouldn't hurt. Lol I just need to be back before Sunday, to teach my class. Hopefully everything works out, and I'll be blogging from Colorado tomorrow. haha Wishful thinking.. :)